Exams!!

Took my exams for this 2 weeks.. It was like the longest 2 weeks of my life.. It has been 10 years since my last exams in my poly days in May 2001.. After my poly days I went for my BMT and after I was in the force all the way till now..

9th and 10th April I was still quite relax as I only study a bit while accompany Jerlyn most of the time.. I took leave for my first exam on the 13th April Wednesday and spend Monday and Tuesday at Chevron studying with Bernard.. But Tuesday I went back to my workplace in the morning because Huijun needed to go into the medical centre to have her blood drawn.. So I went in with her and saw how the doctor poke her countless times with needles but still couldn't draw it out.. Until she couldn't take it and ask for another option.. She was really brave.. I was looking at her face all the time and she was really calm.. On the exam day we went to the school early in the morning to study and discuss last minutes issues with other classmates.. After the exam I feel that it was okay but I could have done better.. I didn't ate dinner before my exam so I was starving so Jerlyn accompany me for supper..

14th and 15th April which is Thursday and Friday I went back to work.. And boy I was really unlucky.. Something big happens and I was tasked to do some control measures about the case and had to stay later than Jerlyn.. It was the first time that I work later than her in the normal day shift.. She came to fetch me around at 9 plus at night..

Weekend came again.. Jerlyn went out on Saturday and leave me alone for me to study.. But I didn't manage to study much.. Think that weekend my mind will automatic switch off itself.. so Sunday was the same but I manage to study a bit because I went to Chervon with Bernard to study.. I tried to push myself more as I did quite badly for the test for this module so I need more marks in this exam.. So from 18th to 20th April I stay at home and watch the videos that the lecturer make during the lesson to understand more of the module.. But there was too many information to know and I was really overloaded.. Monday night the 18th me and Jerlyn went to see the MP for our housing issues hoping that he could help us.. The guy who work under the MP didn't give us false hope that we will sure get the housing we wanted but we were told off by him too.. But we needed his help and we didn't want to loose our chances so we just accept what he said.. 

So the final exam day came and as usually me and Bernard went to school early to study again.. But we detour to CMPB to get something for my HDB appointment on 26th April.. Feeling the heat as time was nearing so I tried to memorise the course review and the tips that the lecturer gave but it backfire.. Most of the tips was not in the exam paper and I did badly for this paper.. Now I can only pray that I can pass it..

22nd April is Good Friday so I went out with Jerlyn to IMM to shop.. We didn't shop long as we were quite tired and went home and took a nap instead..

After the exams I felt that after not having exam for so long.. I really need the mentally strength to be back and it was really stressful having work and study at the same time.. But I will try my best to finish this three years of struggle for my better future..

7th May will be the Polling day.. I had never vote in my life so this time I might have the chance to vote as the area where I am staying finally might have opposition contesting for the GRC..

SSDPC and Progress Test

My First Progress Test and I flunk like hell.. Didn't have this feeling for so long since Poly days.. But poly days didn't even flunk so badly before.. 

28th March went to AFTC to have my pre SSDPC course brief.. Know that life will be tough for the following week as there will be marching and also having my test on the same week..

31st March I ask my dad about the housing.. He told the MP about it and they wrote a letter to HDB to see of we could get a nearer flat.. Now got to wait till there is any changes if not we will be choosing Bukit Panjang for our new home..

1st April had my 1st IPPT of the year and I'm the 1st in my flight to fail it.. I know I won't be able to pass it because I haven't been exercising since last year I passed my IPPT.. But I did manage to achieve my target which is running non stop and run below 15 minutes.. I manage to run 14.09 minutes.. But the aftermath was really painful.. My legs was not used to the running and ached for 2 days.. Going down the stairs was nightmare..

Going for the SSDPC course was really not I wanted.. But having no choice I went there and learn.. It was like BMT again.. Marching everywhere we go.. Singing everywhere we go.. Everyday we perspired like running tap.. Everyday ached till numbed.. The most difficult part is holding the colours which is super heavy and we need to hold it for 30 seconds.. And did it twice some more.. But the whole course wasn't really that bad.. It was fun too.. Overall it was a good experience but I do not want to try it again..

Jerlyn fell sick on 7th and 8th April.. Having fever and sore throat.. I was tired because of the SSDPC course and also need to study for my test too so I didn't really have time to take care of her.. Feel bad about this..

For my progress test on 8th April.. I didn't really have time to study because I was too tired to concentrate on studying.. My mind went blank when I saw the paper.. really want to hand in blank but I told myself to write something at least so there might be some marks for it.. But after coming out and look at my notes.. I know its gone..

Thinking..

After my wife starting thinking of changing her 1st job after coming back from PC2, I was wondering I should follow her and change job a not.. Not because everyone is leaving the force.. This is one of the factors but not all because of this.. One of my batch boy who got a job outside but haven't got his ER form signed by boss yet, asked me if there any particular reasons that make so many people wanted to leave.. I feel that being in the force for too long have seen too much things and the people in there is really making me sick of the place.. I'm not saying the force is not good, there benefits are better than outside world. Its just that the people cannot make me improve anymore, I have become too used to the place and I think I will rot inside if I keep on staying.. But having said that, being too long inside also make me worried if I can adapt to the world..